March 14, 2025 - Catchin’ up with myself

The last time I sat down and wrote to myself was at the end of January! I surely did not nail the whole meeting with myself to consider where I am once a month thang, but thats okay~

February was relatively chill. I finally started going to DBT after having been on a waitlist for 5 months prior. The program so far has been useful in that I have developed a better understanding of some of the underlying mechanics of the disorder I have and learned some useful tools to use to help me navigate through the experience of having an emotion and being in the world in a much less combative and supremely uncomfortable white-knuckle-through-it-all way of being that has been my modus operandi thus far. I’m particularly fond of TIP and ACCEPTS skills alongside the half smiling and willing hands meditation combined with non-judgemental observation. The former two tools are great to relax me and promote a healthy connection to the world around me and my position in the world during moments in which I feel like I am about to go sicko mode where the latter combination of skills are simply relaxing and provide a sense of quiet satisfaction. I am, however, challenged by DBT. There are some concepts and skills that are a bit more difficult for me to grasp and the practice of mindfully experiencing your behavior to notice when things start to go awry takes more effort than I had originally assumed. Not that I let these irritations get in the way of my diligent practice, of course! I am greatly motivated to accomplish this course with the utmost diligence so that I can meet myself where I want to be.

I had a number of good things happen in February and the beginning of March which is great considering the political and economic climate that my country is in right now. In no particular order: DBT (of course), my anniversary rocked (I love my spouse so much. 10 years!), valentines day was a lot of fun, we got an Ipad for free, I made a new friend, saw a cool movie (Mickey 17), my best friend and I were finally able to exchange Christmas gifts with one another, I got a pen-pal/ reconnected with an old friend and I have made three crow friends. February was wonderful. March has been wonderful thus far!

While I’m fearful for the future of my country and what everything means for my friends and family here that are vulnerable to the regime in power, I am very thankful for having the opportunity to live my life with compassionate companionship, great comrades, and the tenacity and privilege to stay curious and explore the world around me at whim. I hope for a future where everyone can have a similar or better experience than I.

Ta-ta for now dawwwwwwwgs Stay strong, fight people, be annoying! (but do it from Wise Mind ;0) )

Jan 28, 2025 – Hello, World!

Welcome to the Blog!

Today marks day one of this little completely independent blog’o’mine. The idea for this project is to have all of the fun of looking back on a social media wall but without my data being sold or my memories and opinions (that nobody should care about anyway) being pushed as content to be engaged with in the most half-assed way possible cementing my place in history as a participant in ensuring the public continues their decent into brain-rot land where the people are made of goo and nobody feels anything or does anything.

I’m not planning to take this page super seriously and I definitely won’t commit to posting more than once a month, BUT it will be full of things I find interesting or fun (and maybe possibly most-likely word-vomit) so maybe you’ll find something interesting here, too!

If for some reason I *am* going silly mode I will write things in this cipher! You will notice that you cannot right click on this text. It means that I can be lazy and cheese it by just emplying a cheeky font.

This is where I slap a warning label on this page and say that I am a little bit insane, a lot'o'bit a pessimist and I almost exclusively have wack takes on stuff. People have said I come off as: a crazy leftist, intense, too aggressive, and annoying. I personally like being passionate and loud so I am okay with and tbh kind of embrace those opinions. If it’s not for you, it’s totally okay and I hope you enjoy your time elsewhere. :0)

Anyways, I’m super proud of this layout. I have wanted to make something more simplistic and futuristic for a while and I LOVE a simple PDA interface. Making this page took so much longer than I thought because of so many life-events interrupting the process but it was so worth it to stick things through. I don’t really have plans for any new layouts but I do have much more work to do in order to finish my website here. Next is tackling formatting artwork to be posted on the sketchbook pages!!